Sunday, January 30, 2005
you know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus:
I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus
i've built my world around u and i want you to know
i need u live i never needed anyone before
chorus
i live my life for you
i live my life for you
oh wells, she loves this song. specially dedicated for her. :D
; i'm here, waiting for you.
boy, i miss you, come home soon. >):
; stick with you
Saturday, January 29, 2005
there's a comment box below.
just in case the tagboard doesn't work again, tag me there.
_I will turn to God, He'll help me.
; stick with you
I STILL LOVE YOU.
I WILL WAIT FOR YOU.
; stick with you
Thursday, January 27, 2005
all i ask for, was just to be with you.
with that, i would be happy enough.
i hope you're right here with me now. i don't want tears to fall. i don't wanna cry. i wanna turn back time. i hope you know i love you, and i still do. i regret being angry with you. i shouldn't, both of us don;t want things to turn out like that either. who wants right? and it just aim right at our anniversary. okay, partly im to blame to. im just so petty and irritating to get furious over things like that.
i'm sorry.
i shouldn't ask you to stay with your friends. i thought you would be happier with your friends. whether im there anot, you're still the happy you. maybe i dont know, how you're feeling inside out of you, but somehow i know you aint feeling good when i told you to stay. i know you ain't feeling good. so am i. moodswing-ed badly. very stressed up. well, like what you said, we need to learn to compromise. and i don't wanna leave. i won't want to. you said, you wanna stay long long long time with me by my side. somethings you said, i will never forget this lifetime.
again, i'm sorry.
i know, apologizing won't work anymore. WE'VE USED THAT TOO MANY TIMES. )x
ah well, i hope i don't have to be in school tmr. sigh.
many homework undone. ): still got art research, english compo, baby's present.
how?! i want baby now! i demand. ):
how come i'd never hear you say "i just want to be with you"
guess you never felt that way. =\
; stick with you
Sunday, January 23, 2005
; we haven't talked for a day.
i miss your voice. >):
i don't know which song explains how i feel now. ): terrible feeling yes?
home alone now, parents went out for a swim. wasn't in a mood for anything. biased parents i have lah. they promised me they bring me out for a walk or a jog in the morning, cos i look kinda down. just because zell said, they promised her FIRST to bring her to the pool. they did. they bought her there instead. mum says she envy other people mum who can communicate well with the daughter. IT ALL STARTED BECAUSE THEY COMPROMISE. i tried. i failed. i tried again. i failed again.
you know i have to give in to both sides? not both, there's three. i can't please everyone. i'm not a superman, im not a wonderwoman. no one understands this.
let's do some cheering up on monday okay clique?
studied chem yesterday. couldn't get to sleep. read the book baby lent to me. finishing already! haha, im slow at reading lah. hahahaha. xD uh huh, shall do more reading later on.
i hope you're right here with me now, wiping those tears off my face just like how you used to do whenever tears start falling. :'( i hope you're doing fine. do take care. i miss alot. sigh! no matter what, i will always love you. :')
specially for you, baby. :]
Missing You - 1st Ladi
What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
You needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why did he take you away, from me
It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothing, without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry
Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothing, without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
I just don’t know what to do with myself
I can’t stop looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I want to know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby I’m missing you
Baby I’m missing you
I love you oohh God dammit I love you
Why did he did he take you away from me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby
I just can’t go on baby
; i'm breaking down, somebody please pray for me.
; stick with you
Friday, January 21, 2005
; time will heal the pain im feeling now.
off to town today. sarah, nette, qiao, mans and baby. :D lotsa fun though it was a short period of time. hah. met them all at compass. went off to far east to collect sarah's skirt first. after that, mans wants to go to paragon to get some perfume. went around asking, said the pw to some salesgirl, she gave us 6 bottles of sample. "Miracles So Magic!" think it's quite nice. baby doesn't really like it. hah. went to taka to look for food. we jay-walked across. that was this unker saying lotsa craps. "girl ah, later you all get caught ah. yesterday the police just caught a few." we just went yeah yeah, shut up. hahahah.
can't really find a place in taka to sit and eat. so decided to go to cine instead. qiao, baby and i went off first, sarah and the rest went to buy something. went to pastamania. ate, fool around wih the leftover food. hahahaha. add many things inside though. damn disgusting. :D saw many people while we were eating. don't remind me of who we saw. was totally disgusting people! yucks. ACT PUNK! ohhh no! -pukes. alrighty, wanted to take neos but too many people. decided to get out of that place, so went to heeren. the whole place was packed with people. walked around, look for my pencil case. went to a few shops. all sold out. it's consider old stock already. sigh, nvm. shall get another one. after that, we went on our own already, the rest wanted to go OG ,i need to go CK tang to meet my parents. baby sent me there, home after that.
met my parents, walked around, home sweet home.
parents went out, now im home alone. :D
there's many things that i wish to get the load off my mind, but i just couldn't. i realised i've got no one to turn to. no one will understand the confusion im going through, the pain i feel inside of me, the unhappiness that i wished it wasn't here. sigh, it's my life. i didn't want to choose this way of living. i need some listeners, cheering up and warm hugs.
i kept thinking, you would always put your arms around me whereever we go. yesterday, the whole outing proved it all wrong. afterall those, i still love you. : )
; i feel so unloved, sigh. -CRIES-
; stick with you
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
; if you don't remember, i'm telling you now, it's the 7th dec. ):
just realised many things that she no longer remembers, or maybe she remembers but she didn't say it out. (x im okay with it. just that, 7th dec is kinda important. sigh. nvm. it doesn't matter right? what matters is US, right? right? cheer up lah, glynis! :D
i want to be a happier girl, can i?
well, school is torturing. lotsa work got to be done. house practise for sec1s ytd. me and qiaos went. met baby after that. went part-tor. :D had so much fun. had plenty of work ytd though. =\ im happier with my new hair now! (: i don't know why. i kept thinking baby doesn't like it. but it turned out "okay lah". hahaha. im happy enough! =)
went to take neos with mans, sass and nettes today. so nice! (: we stare the photos and smiled. that's us lah. i love them many many. :D baby was kinda unhappy with me, i dont know why. btw, im sorry baby. didn't mean to make you angry. i love you, okay?!! :D
sometimes, i really wonder, were you trying to be nice cos, you really wanna be friends with us again and mend back those heartaching times, or is it because, you just wanna put on an act? seriously speaking, i don't dare to trust you anymore. once bitten, twice shy. ( is that right? ) i know everytime you see me, you would always give a glare. i dont know what was that for. i want us to be like how close we used to be. but i know it's difficult. we're drifting apart like nobody's business. frankly speaking, i dont hate you. maybe sometimes, i do. but no longer. i don't want to. sighs. if i say, i miss the old good us many, do you feel the same way too?
ignore those craps. (: im tha happy happy grrl!
; can my everyday be like yesterday?
i just wanna spend everyday with you just like that..
so happily, even after we part. ):
; stick with you
Sunday, January 16, 2005
; i'll wait here patiently, staring at my phone, for you to call me
i feel so dead. i msged her twice, and she ain't replying any of them. i bet i made her fucking pissed off with me. i should have just kept my mouth shut. i regret lah.
i just had a ugly hair cut. really ugly lah. got no face to look at anyone anymore. TSK.
i totally got no mood to do anything.
later!
; why can't you be here to catch my tears?
; stick with you
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
; i'm in a damn frucking foul mood, tell me why.
she ain't feeling good, i know. so do i. i affected her, i guess. i'm so sorry. i'm feeling so bad lah. sigh. nvm lah. she said she'll call me later. she wants to be alone. i wish i could just scream like that. ugh. i'm just feeling so messed up.
i really need to be alone, seriously.
i'm sick and tired of everything. if you don't want me to touch you, let's not touch each other then. and, that was what you said.
do you know, even just a gentle touch from you could make me fly high up and touch the sky? and you're the only one who could make me feel that way. but why can't you make me feel that way again?
all the sad songs appeared again. it somehow pulls me down. felt kinda down when we start singing in school today. and everything that was on my mind is,
- the war btwn the two of them is not over yet.
- baby's not feeling well.
- you don't know how much it hurts to see you walk away.
- why she dont wanna hug me?
- why she didnt know why she didnt hug me before we separate ways?
- i won't be able to see her the whole day tmr! )':
- the bloody parents wants me to go home early.
; when you said that, could you feel my heart tearing into two?
; stick with you
Monday, January 10, 2005
; i regret so much. why.
why did i trust you like a trusted friend.
why talk bad about me when you said, "tell glynis, i don't hate her, i don't dislike her. ". i don't believe these crap anymore. ):
i regret. you treated me like your own sister. i told you every little thing that was bothering about me. you showered me with many love. we became really close darhlings. you were the one whom i told everything to. but now? we dirfted apart. things started to change. YOU DIAO-ED ME. YOU GAVE THAT WHATEVER LOOK WHEN I WALKED PASS YOU. YOU POINTED AT ME, TELLING SOMETHING TO YOUR GROUP OF FRIENDS. to think, my darling did that. how heartbreaking can that get? whenever i thought of what you said to me, whether is it good or bad, i feel the pain.
i don't wanna diss you. i don't have the intention to. i don't wanna create extra work for myself either. i'm tired, so is baby. now, i hope everything is settled and there's no more grudge or whatever btwn us yeahs? sigh. i've got nothing against you. (: i still treat you like my friend, my darling.
i agreed with spike. be careful of the friends you choose. i know what she's trying to mean. sigh. well, the conclusion. TRUST NO ONE. :D looks are so deceiving. don't judge a book by its cover. ive decided not to trust someone too easily. i don't wanna get backstabbed again.
broke down more than thrice today. how pathetic can that get. thanks to those who tried comforting me. SARAH, QIAO LIN, MANSURAH, QIAN YU, KRISTLE. thanks so much. now when trouble comes, it really shows who are really my true friends. deep in my heart, i know it's true. hah.
ah, blog later!
baby, everything's over now. please please study hard. concentrate on your studies and not nonsense like these yeah? i don't want you to get affected. remember what i told you about what mansurah said? remember those words. outing thise saturday! :D:D:D i love you. take care.
; i need a peaceful life.
; stick with you
Monday, January 03, 2005
; i hate school, i hate everything
school is so screwed. very screwed. ): ugh, i can't have peaceful life in sjc. ): someone scolded me a slut. AGAIN. actually, seriously speaking, ive stopped saying bad things about her. really, afterall i have to respect her as a friend right? i don't hate her. maybe, dislike. yeah. her childish attitude. yeah, i've already forgiven and forget about what happened.
when i told her about me and jace over the phone, she went like, jace is like that de. dont so sad lah. youcan find someone better. all kinds of shit coming out from her. but deep down in her heart, she said this " she's sucha flirt. " she knows what went wrong btwn me and jace while others dont! ): i thought she was the only understanding one. but it turn out to be, NO, NOT HER. i was so wrong about her. ):
school today was terrible. GOT BIG PRESENT FROM BABY! ( : i love the watch and the music box! i didn't get to see the drawing she drew for me! i left it in the box! AH! -SCREAMS.
thank you baby! i love you so.
just got my 77th street card! (: WHEEEEE! (:
i'm meeting baby before school tmr morning! I LOVE!
thank you for showing me that
there is such a thing as happiness.
that happiness is being with you.
; stick with you
Saturday, January 01, 2005
; happy new year to one and all !
brenda's birthday today ! (:
happy birthday sweetie !
we countdown-ed together yesterday! (: was fun lah thou just the two of us. talked till around two. was watching indian show. nice though. hahaha. okay, back to today. went out for lunch at pan pac hotel, as we didn't get to dine there yesterday. after the buffet, went to meet my cousin and nephew. went to shop around suntec ! haha. had fun lah. that nephew of mine, he's just so adorable. he sent me a mms, but i couldn't retrive it from my phone. just went to look at the retrival. haha ! and guess what ? it's the hai you ming tian song ! he knows i love that song. hahaha. it's mp3, not ringtone. (: went to walk the water fountian. ahhaa. all had so much fun ! bought vcds and dvds. bought my super shine buffer too ! we shopped till our legs are too lag to carry us ! hahah. so decided to send my cousin and nephew down to koven as they wanted to buy some stuffs, we went home after that ! ((:
just remembered. im supposed to burn a cd for my nephew. hahaha. he's so in love with sly's song. hahaha. that boy ah. shall burn it later. gonna burn a few others too. burning one for baby. i realiaed there's many songs in my comp that she wants but she didn't get to have them. everytime i wanna send it to her, her comp hang. yeah lah, thanks so much. =\ shall burn them all for her then. hahaha.
oh well, shall blog another day!
P.S. > school's starting in one more day's time ! -SCREAMS- and i'm meeting baby before school ! :D:D:D:D i'm one happy happy girl !
later !
I'd pray for time to pass by slowly
So it would seem like more than just a day
I'd laugh just to see you smile
In that special sort of way
; stick with you
